7 weeks.

Now we can officially announce!
It was a shock for me and Sam but we're grateful. Can't wait to welcome he/she into the world. Rebecca will be a great big sister. Sam will be a great father.

Scan 6 Weeks 5 days. 

like a daddy but not a daddy

the last couple of weeks have really opened my eyes to how good Sam is with Rebecca. He treats her as his own, On Saturday Rebecca's Real dad wanted to see her...went along only 45 minutes late he was, he got there and just starred, it was like it was just anther stranger to Rebecca, in fact it was more she was scared of him she's always running around smiling but she froze and sat in silence. The whole thing was just awkward since then i haven't heard from him he hadn't seen her for over 6 months, I don't even know why i bothered going but i suppose Rebecca has a right to know her father. After a hour Sam picked us up outside, drove home & Rebecca was so pleased to get home she ran over to the dog first of all to give her a hug then to Sam to give him a hug. Its almost Sam is her dad but not her real dad. He's known her for over a year now, we've nearly been together a year (on&off) and i can trust him with her 100%. On Thursday i was getting ready for work and i was looking for a shirt to wear walked into the kitchen Rebecca and Sam where  having a little dance. I could go on forever about little stories.

I suppose she knows Sam more as her dad than what she knows her real dad.

Nightmare

Me and Sam have been looking at getting a new car for a couple of months since his car had over 120,000miles on and was pretty much falling apart.. we found an MG we both liked went to view it on the Wednesday it was lush inside and outside great nick, we said we'd take it and where going to do a check but the guy said cash only since he didn't have a bank account, so we went back did all the right car checks on the car, looked at past service history ect.. We went back up and our friend had a look and waited so he could follow us back, handed over the cash £1500 off it, thought that it was fine... we got on the motorway.. 5 minuites away from where we bought it from, going about 70mph on the motorway the car suddenly started slowing down went into the lay by, car wouldn't run or even start. So we called the guy we bought it off and the phone line was dead it didn't even go too voicemail. Lee took the exit off and went back to the house knocked on the door and too our suprise the house he claimed to live at was empty. No-one lived there, just a lode of mail through the door, We called out the AA and the police, the police pretty much said we've lost the 1500£ it was our faults.. the AA came the battery was dead so they literally jump started it so we could make it home. Got home about 2am, despite having work at 9am, we litreally went to sleep, At 8am we called the mechanic he came out looked at the car- needs a new battery, new cam belt and head gascut has gone. The total would come up into the £1000's to repair the car. So litreally we've got a useless car and £1500 shorter. Learnt our lessons to never trust anyone who are selling cars. So now we have got 2 cars to scrap and no car. Wahoo. Loving life. Least we get something like £65 each for scrapping the cars, looks like push bikes for the next month or public transport. The next idea is to get a contract hire car which is brand new and you pay something like £300 a month. The whole thing is a total nightmare.

But i hope Rebecca is having a lovely hoilday in Wales with her great grandad and grandma and making them run around after her!! :)

Sorry about the typos to angry/tired to go back and change them!

Life is too busy

for social networking, twitter, blogspot, facebook ect... im done with immature people from the internet and got my family too think about.
I may log in now and then but take care people!

Sisters

I've always been compared to my oldest sister all my life, everything from my size, look, personality and my decisions. I've been use to it, being the bigger one, the ugly one & even feeling like the mistake. I've never been good enough in whatever I do. She was the pretty, skinny, clever one. I always envied her.. trying to do stuff to impress her. She was my role model.

Stuff got better with us for the last year we we're side by side i could tell her everything..
but since shes got a new boyfriends its like me and Rebecca have been forgotten. We use to text each other everyday the last time i heard from her was Monday and that's just odd. So i text her today saying it will be nice to meet up next weekend.. we both have iPhone so i can see where she has read the message. So i sent it about 11am at 1 ish pm it had been read, so i was pissed off when i saw her on Facebook talking in pictures shes tagged in.  Im not some one to just sit around and not say anything i sent her a shitty text and she replied what's wrong with you grumpy... my reply was 'you' so about 8pm my nan called me asking what was going on.. i told her and she stuck up for my sister like always saying she has a boyfriend leave her alone blah blah blah... i understand that we both have boyfriends, we live different lives but all i was asking for was 5 minutes to talk to her. She obviously doesn't want that.

Some ways it feels like I've lost someone forever... i don't see them ending.. actually not for a long time now they booked to go to Thailand, new Zealand and Australia together. I love my sister and i know when you get with someone you don't have alot of time and busy but what hurts the most is the way she can call my nan go on Facebook read the message and not even reply saying no sorry or asking how we all are..

Me and Sam have nearly been together for a year now on and off.. but i have never not made time for my friends even if i text them asking how they are or what there up too, or going out for lunch with them. Even though its hard to say i suppose she just wants to be there for us when she's got no one else in her life. Least i've got my daughter , boyfriend and all my amazing old & new friends.

Basically hoes before bros... something like that.

Sunny Summer

                                             

Walkies :)

Walk in sunshine

what these yellow flowers called?

I don't care what people say..

Just because i have a child doesn't mean I'm not entitled to have some fun, I'm not causing harm to anyone but myself yes i go out drinking to clubs and bars but its not like i don't see my daughter the most im gone is 6 days a month, im still young, i like to party i like to drink and i like to dance its not like im going back with random strangers and sleeping around like some people my age, I'm with one person and don't really see the issue in going out once in a while, i always return home to bed, i wake up the next morning the only harm im doing to myself is drinking and putting myself in danger thats why i go to safe places like clubs there are bouncers to stop crap having, its better than a house party and alot safer. So to everyone who thinks its 'bad' i go out so much well im sorry I'm not going to change for anyone, would they rather me sit at home and be sad and bored, keep your crap thoughts to yourself and get a freaking life instead of being involved in mine.