Last update before christmas.

christmas is nearly here wahoo.
to be honest this year im not exicted at all nor was i last year. i suppose everything has changed this year i won't be celbrating christmas with my dad. Social services won't let me stay at my mums although i think im old enough to make that deccision but apparently not. But i suppose i got my step family & rebecca. Sams going home for christmas... buts going to pop over in the evening, maybe.

Plus christmas is too expensive all the little bits have added up & Rebeccas birthday cost more than expected...but my family payed some of that for me; most of it was down through favours; my brother got a few chefs down from his work, my other brother managed to get a bouncy castle & fire wood through favours again but the cake and stuff i suppose i could of got that made by my brother being a chef an all but i wanted a specail one; suppose i should learn not to be so fussy but i wanted the best; then i had to give sam petrol money as he drove 25miles to get a cake well he said he didn't want petrol money but i made him take it as overwise it will just be like im using him... which im not. Thenn for christmas i planned on spending £30 on my family members £20 on friends and £200 on Rebecca; most of the budgets trippled once a again buy just buying stuff and forgeting i got them stuff. Well there have alot for christmas.... Anyways i went out today stopped at garage to get some munchies, my first card declined, then my second card declined; so i was just standing there akwardly. So i left that stuff. Got home checked my account and have £0.32p to my name. Luckly my manger is paying me half my wages tomorrow in cash so we'll survive.

im too tired to right the rest.

She's 1!!

Today it's a year since I had Rebecca wow how things have changed can
Really write much today as I'm on
My phone but will be posting pictures in a few days and emailing some pictures of Rebecca and friends :)

Im at my mummmmas!

well yeah im here im already bored. Haha!
Luckly Sam came with me as he needed to get rid of hoilday at work, So now we just got to find shit to do here, i got a few mates coming round tomorrow and sunday!
do a few bits with them. But yeah. Its boring!!
i just wanna see my friends but there all going to JJ'S and well im a dumb shit and leave my ID at home. LOL so just going to get a take-away and watch a film with sam and mummsie.

Fuck fuck fuck

Everything is crap again.

Christmas countdown as began...

This is just like an update of everything.

Well the christmas countdown has begun and we put up the tree this afternooon the colour theme is brown and gold! :) it looks nice. We're trying to keep it simple. i guess.


Sharing a room with my cousin has been a nightmare she made up crap excuse why she couldnt tidy our room although 95% of it was her mess. She said she couldn't get the make-up out of the carpet cause shes allergic to cleaning products.... Lol yeah whatever. So me and Becca are now in a tiny room but its better than sharing a room. :)

Work has been going well. Im getting more hours; equals more ££££! I had a trail the other week about working down stairs without supervision and i did goooood! so from 2012 im starting to work every friday as well as sunday from 6am-2pm!! yayyyy.

College well thats going well. We had wednesday off so i went shopping and did slept whilst becz was at daycare.

Daycare is going well but my nanna want me to part more beccas life; so there only going to pay for 4 days; so monday, tuesday, wednesday morning, and friday. It will be more hard to get this college work done but we'll make it work somehow.


Rebecca is supporting herself against items!! so walking looks like its in the  picture soon. Safetyyyy everywhere! haha. Its her one year check up soon at the doctors i have no real concerns. My doctors have been supportive through everything.


More Resonisabilty well yeah basically iv kind of been let off on my own now; i do our own washing all off it, cook our own food, wash our own dishs & bottles; Getting ready for 6 months or so when we move out! suppose it will be good.

LONDONNNNN! well most people know im going down to london at the end of this month for a couple of days. Well as my past down there isn't the best. Ive been giving a set of 'rules' as such to follow when im down; My social worker Graham helped me write them out well it was his idea he just don't want me getting in shit or in dangerous suituations i suppose;Heres my faviourites ;)
- No Drinking
- Be in by 10:30pm everynight
- Keep phone on at all times.
- Dont break anything
Haha!


Well thats all i got time for.
HAPPY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE!!!!!!!!

Just a few pictures

 French braid

 Two comb Blow dry

 Dress which my real mum bought me on a day out

Thortons hot chocolate from my real mummys :))))))))

Things aren't good at home...

well this has been going on a few weeks now well I just feel unwanted or invisable I came home today from work my brother picked me up he didnt even ask how I was he said
Oh why did you leave your comPuture on when you was at work I said I turned it off by the switch it must be coming from the office is you can hear it and he was like no I can hear it from your room and i was like okay. Ran up stairs checked my rooms everything was off went in the office and everything was on 3 computers and 2 printers went down to tell everyone they said Alex heard you the first time how much more do you need to repeat yourself again. I went to take my shopping bags upstairs sorted it all out into piles then got shouted at because my puppy had ripped something apprently a boot of
My brothers which is worth £160 I said that can't be cause he's too small to bite that much then I said it must of been your dogs
Cause there known for ripping things. But no it was mine so now
My puppy has to stay in my room but when my shit gets broken his
Dogs never have to be kept in his room. Anyways I went back to
My room did some more present sorting them all out; got shouted at Agsin Jess go walk the dogs all of them this time well sorry but I can't take 13 dogs on a walk at once anyways i dd but went on the quad bike but apprently I have no ruined the grass.. It hasn't rained for a week. So I got crap for that. Went in with my other dog cause I want her in tonight and once again I get in trouble for that. Apprently she's a been naught all day.... No one in this fucking house pAys attention to her. So I put her back outside asked what was for dinner got in trouble for asking because there all busy on there phones or laptops and got told 'all you care about is food you fat bitch'i walked upstairs then they text me saying if you want food walk to the shop yourself And get something because there having fish when everyone knows I hate it and haven't eaten fish for 7years. So I said dw about me I'm you going to bed anyways then my mum said shell get me something so she went co op got me some value pasta. So I had that whilst everyone ate there food then she got some Ben and jerriers ice cream served my brothers some didn't ask me so I went to the kitchen she used 3 tubs on them.. So i went upstairs and just been writing this. Just so they know that I had a crap day and felt ill all day not like they care that's only 10% of the shit theyve done.

Life is good.

Well with being im ill i haven't really been out much the past couple of days basically been stuck inside so i decided to go out with the 2 dogs which will actually listen to me and won't run away. Anyways i went on a walk in which iv done a quad bike track on. i kinda knew that it was 3 miles so i set off with a flask and the two dogs. When i was up there i stopped for a minuite to just think how lucky i;am to live in the middle of no where to have no traffic going past and that this land is our familys land. My brother and the workers where out at some shotting so i knew there would be no bloody shotting going on. For once. So i was free just to walk the land with out a walkie talkie. I got to the the top of the land and just looked down and was like wow. I can't belive i use to live in London to living in the middle of no where its peacful. Not even a traffic or a airplane in site. Heres some photos to show you just how i feel. Im super dupper happy.

Some of my familys land.

Brown dog - Sika White & Black dog - Naughty nora

Sika up close with my other brother.

Theres an insight of my life.

Nearly end of this month hardly updated.

Well things have been pretty stressful so haven't been posting with college ect. being ill. Blah Blah Blah.
Anyways in the next two days we got to pack and move like 30 minuites away to the christmas (hoilday home) with all the family. So ill be updating less. I suppose. Or ill be updating loads because there making me go crazyyy!! Anyways im already annyoed with this christmas having Rebecca in Decemeber means you spend all the money which i don't have on her. Then i have nonee to get anyone anything! haha. Oh the joys. But im going to get everyone little bits like a box of chocolates or a tin of roses or something. But that should be alright.

The party plans are coming toghthere which is good. Alot of people are coming including all my family and a few friends and family friends. It will be nice i even got some pink champange for the alduts to go with the theme!(well my mum did) and my Real Mum is actually coming!!! which is great as im planning on moving back down to london when im 16! I've already been looking at a few places. They seem alright online. I kinda want to go more on the out skirts of London not centreal. Ill just be renting with my friend Rosie(well thats the plan) shes 18 and works full time. So it will be alright. Be a laugh. We're looking more into Surrey country side just a 2/3 bedroom flat/house! i've spoken to my step mum and she'll pay my rent for 12months and my bills so i can save my money up in the meanwhile to pay next years! (i thinks shes just trying to get rid off us.) The good thing is Rosie can drive so be able to get around and i want to get a mo-ped!! hehe.

Ohhh i did my english exam on monday which is equivalant to a GCSE and it was easy so im hoping i did okay.

Anyways im ill. Im meant to be resting.

Talk soon.

we've been busy.

But i cant be bothered to go into anything.
mainly because its a tiny bit possible i may still be drunk from last night? hmm who knows.
 Anyways i just had a bath, thats how exicting my life really is at the moment.
Now im in a towel wooo you get this story i think. If you don't go have a bath then sit on the pc wrapped in a towel. Wooohoo. Well i felt i was leaving my little blog behind but i thought id post. Happy Holloweeen!!

Also Holly i also can't comment :( :(

Long time no post - So quick update.

well life has been pretty crazy, mad whatever you want to call it.
Rebecca is now 10months old!! its crazy how quick time goes.
Anyways; a few things have changed with her father and to be honest im not going into that on here; i'll just say its being sorted out.

We've been busy with appointments but been refered to a speacilist now; just mean i may have to leave college because the specailist appoinments may be weekly and with the college work and travling down to london every week it just won't fit in.

College has been okay, but to be honest iv been quite lonely i don't really get much time to myself these days and when i do everyone is busy. I feel like i need to see my friends at least once a week even if they come round mine for a movie and takeaway.

The land at home has been wet so we haven't been able to use the bikes well we can but it will ruin the grass. However its been horrible walking the dogs in the morning! whilst its chucking down. (after the rain i always feel like i need wash aswell).

Well thats about it heres a picture of what i got up to monday.

My Blog is mucking up so im back to this one.

My other blog has mucked up.
So im back on this one. YAY.
amyways thats it. :)