Sisters

I've always been compared to my oldest sister all my life, everything from my size, look, personality and my decisions. I've been use to it, being the bigger one, the ugly one & even feeling like the mistake. I've never been good enough in whatever I do. She was the pretty, skinny, clever one. I always envied her.. trying to do stuff to impress her. She was my role model.

Stuff got better with us for the last year we we're side by side i could tell her everything..
but since shes got a new boyfriends its like me and Rebecca have been forgotten. We use to text each other everyday the last time i heard from her was Monday and that's just odd. So i text her today saying it will be nice to meet up next weekend.. we both have iPhone so i can see where she has read the message. So i sent it about 11am at 1 ish pm it had been read, so i was pissed off when i saw her on Facebook talking in pictures shes tagged in.  Im not some one to just sit around and not say anything i sent her a shitty text and she replied what's wrong with you grumpy... my reply was 'you' so about 8pm my nan called me asking what was going on.. i told her and she stuck up for my sister like always saying she has a boyfriend leave her alone blah blah blah... i understand that we both have boyfriends, we live different lives but all i was asking for was 5 minutes to talk to her. She obviously doesn't want that.

Some ways it feels like I've lost someone forever... i don't see them ending.. actually not for a long time now they booked to go to Thailand, new Zealand and Australia together. I love my sister and i know when you get with someone you don't have alot of time and busy but what hurts the most is the way she can call my nan go on Facebook read the message and not even reply saying no sorry or asking how we all are..

Me and Sam have nearly been together for a year now on and off.. but i have never not made time for my friends even if i text them asking how they are or what there up too, or going out for lunch with them. Even though its hard to say i suppose she just wants to be there for us when she's got no one else in her life. Least i've got my daughter , boyfriend and all my amazing old & new friends.

Basically hoes before bros... something like that.